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A cup of coffee and the people who notice.

Mar 17, 2026

It started as innocent scrolling. Then one photo stopped me cold.

It was from Hawai’i, January 2024. And before my brain had even registered what I was looking at, my body already knew. My chest got tight. My eyes went soft.

Some moments live in your bones before they live in your memory.

I’ve been sitting with this one for a few days now, trying to figure out what I wanted to say about it. And what kept coming back to me was this: we talk a lot about the big, dramatic moments of healing — the breakthrough, the pivot, the turning point. But that’s not really how it works, is it?

At least, it’s not how it worked for me.

Here’s what actually happened.

🌸 Before you read this, a small note 🌸

I’m playing with my voice in this one. I love irreverence, and it will always be part of me, but sometimes humor feels too small for what the heart is trying to say. This story asked for something different…something quieter, more honest and open.

I followed where it led.

We're going back to Hawai'i in a week, so I’ve been scrolling through old photos and videos, happily reliving moments from our last trip in 2023. Then this one appeared, and suddenly I wasn't in my living room anymore. I was right back inside a moment my heart remembered before my mind did.

It was January 1st, 2024.

The night before, we’d been on the rooftop of a friend’s house, watching fireworks explode over the Kailua rooftops. The sky was loud and bright, full of color and noise and other people’s wishes. Around us, everyone was celebrating: counting down, kissing, laughing, raising glasses to the promise of a new year.

Inside, I was quietly unraveling.

My brother had died that July, five days after my birthday. So as the clock inched toward midnight, it didn’t feel like I was just saying goodbye to 2023. It felt like I was being asked to step over a threshold into a year he would never see. To leave behind the last year he was alive. To leave him behind.

In those final seconds before midnight, while everyone joyously shouted the countdown, my heart clenched so hard it was difficult to breathe. Grief has a way of making time feel sharp. Every number felt like a small cut.

But…I didn’t cry.

I smiled for photos. I clinked glasses. I did what we learn to do as women—we hold it together so we don’t disturb the moment for everyone else. Who wants to be the one sobbing on a rooftop when the world is busy trying to be hopeful?

So I waited.

I waited until we got back to our little guest house, until the door closed and the noise of the night faded. It was within the privacy of those four walls that I finally let go and cried with my whole heart. Not pretty, not contained. Just honest.

The next morning, still raw and puffy-eyed, I reached for the one person who has known me in every version of myself: my mother. I called her because I needed her voice, the familiar cadence that has always meant “you’re not alone, even in this.”

While I was on the phone with her, Speed did the one thing he knew would help. He went to Kyle—our host, our friend, one of the best humans I know—and asked him to make me coffee. Then he brought it to me, quietly, without fanfare, as if it were the most ordinary thing in the world.

It was such a small act.

Just a cup of coffee placed gently in my hands on a morning when my heart felt too heavy to hold anything else. But even now, watching this video, I can feel the weight of their care. The way love sometimes arrives not as grand gestures, but simply as noticing.

Midlife has a way of stripping away the illusion that we’re ever fully in control. We lose people. We lose versions of ourselves. We carry anniversaries in our bodies. And still, somehow, we keep finding ways to stitch ourselves back together, often in the smallest, quietest moments.

That’s what this video is for me.

It’s not just a memory of Hawai‘i, or New Year’s, or fireworks over Kailua. It’s a reminder that we heal slowly, imperfectly, and in community.

We heal when someone makes a phone call easier to bear. When someone tucks a blanket around us without being asked. When the people around us choose to pay attention to what isn’t being said out loud.

This is how we mend ourselves, and maybe, in tiny ways, the world too.

We show up.
We notice.
We soften where we can.

And sometimes, we just bring each other coffee.

If you made it this far — thank you. This one asked more of me than I expected to give, and I’m glad I gave it anyway.

This is what Sandrapop is, at its core: the glittery stuff AND the real stuff. The champagne AND the puffy eyes. The fabulous AND the human. You don’t have to choose, and neither do I.

Now tell me something, because I really want to know👇🏽